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Frisson's avatar

I devour all your words to feel less lonely

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Afframa's avatar

“ But I won’t lose myself in wanting them.

Because I’ve built too much out of being alone to unbuild it for someone who might leave”

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sgcjm's avatar

this words felt like ive seen my soul pouring up the inner thoughts that been haunted my mind. raw, honest, purely and so understandingly tender. the constant battle bout still silenced aloof or chasing the others in so for felt a sense of complete.

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Aaminah's avatar

God this felt like an inside thought. beautiful💌

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diet coke's avatar

One of the realist things I read today, this felt like sunlight coming down my window while I sit on the floor peeling an orange for myself and folding laundry.

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Rae Elaine's avatar

Beautifully said. It almost felt like you began with acceptance of being alone. The peace of caring for yourself in a sense. And then that flash of a loving dream turned into a flood of yearning. I felt this so deeply and it speaks to so many people.

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painarena's avatar

This is too real

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Shanya's avatar

Yes, to every word.

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Juli's avatar

This sounds to me like you might be asexual and/or aromantic and just need a best friend. But I might be completely off, and you certainly don't have to answer to this. It's your life. :)

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ishi's stomping ground's avatar

The "I’ve been walking around holding my own weight for so long, I forgot it’s not supposed to always feel this heavy" really got me

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Melinda's avatar

🌈

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Nhyi's avatar

ARE YOU IN MY MIND? Every word feels like I'm reading my own thoughts. Thank you Hasif, this is beautiful 😊

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Iván De la Rosa Sierra's avatar

Cowardness is the best word I have to describe this. That's my opinion. Delusional too, how do you expect to have great connection without sacrificing?

I believe you are destroying the world by thinking your solitude has greater value than a true bond. Are you going to have kids with one of all those friends you are too scared to make your partner? Or will you have kids with different friends and all live happy lifes where you value your own independence?

It's correct to be yourself and never lose that unique essence. But there is something natural in joining spirits with someone, and having fear of being in a relationship because of the possibility of losing your partner is just being coward to me.

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Eleanor's avatar

I feel the exact same way, thank you for writing this ❤️

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Jess's avatar

This is honestly just beautiful

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A Trip to the Tide Pool's avatar

You articulated so many feelings I didn't have the language for. The last line "Because I’ve built too much out of being alone to unbuild it for someone who might leave." is phenomenal

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